"I don't understand why Xemnas or Saïx wanted to get rid of me either, but they did," she pointed out. "I... could have still been useful.... somehow..." she mumbled, looking down.

Not that she wanted to be useful to them, now, knowing what she now knew. But... still....

She said, more to her boot than to him "I don't understand why anyone does anything, mostly. But they don't stop doing things because I don't understand them."